Yes, the last blog post was about trust, too. It's something that I am walking through right now, and I felt like there was more to share. The Lord placed this word on my heart at the beginning of the year while attending Passion Conference in Atlanta, Georgia. He was calling me into a season of trust, and at the time I didn’t know what that meant. I was excited and expectant for this year to come, and being able to trust on God. But I would be lying if I said that it has been totally amazing. It has been a hard year, already. And I am seeing vividly why this word is mine to cling to this season.
Trust is a word that is used in every day language, but what does it mean to absolutely trust God with EVERYTHING. We say this when talking about our faith and journey, but do we really mean it? I am seeing more clearly areas that I have not let go of and fully handed over to Him, letting Him take over. One area that I have clung onto for almost all of my life, is relationships. I promise you every girl has dreamt of their wedding day at least once - I have, that’s for sure. I’ve never dated before, and I am honestly okay with that. It has saved me from a ton of heart break early on in my life, but I do desire to date one day, and to marry a godly man eventually. Being in college, I feel like it’s so easy to get caught up in other’s relationships because you feel like they are on every corner of campus. I so badly want, and have tried even, to take these desires into my hands. But when trying to find a relationship on my own, it has never ended well, and I have known that God has better plans for me.
Another area that I struggle to trust Christ in is through school and my future. I have never really been a great student. I put effort in my work throughout high school, but I never believed I was smart. It took me two years to even consider going to college, and now here I am. So many of those lies that I believed in high school creep back into my daily life, trying to seek out a degree. Many days I want to drop out and don’t think I will make it through, but God says differently. Without taking a leap of faith, and trusting God that I can do it, I would have never even agreed to go to college…but it is in those times after failing a test or not understanding concepts in classes, that I have to remember why I am doing this. I daily have to cling to God’s truth and trust Him that there is an end goal to this, and that it is worth it to continue trying.
Trusting God is something that does not come naturally to me. If it does for you, please teach me your ways. I constantly have to realign myself with His word, His truths that are spoken through His word, and choose to trust. It is not about always FEELING like trusting, but CHOOSING to trust. Feelings are real, but not reliable (all my Linkies just cringed a little, I know) and if we act on our feelings, that will lead to disaster. On days when there is lack of trust, I have to make a choice - trust anyway.
Elevation Worship has a song, Do It Again, where one line says “I’m still in your hands. This is my confidence, You've never failed me yet.” God has never once failed. He has not missed the mark by any scale, yet, and He won’t. Isn’t that the kind of God we should want to trust? By choosing to trust Him, you are choosing to let go of your ways and have Him guide your steps. I know for me, I would want to be lead by someone who knows their way. God knows His way through every trial and tribulation, He walks beside you and guards you. Trusting in Him is the greatest thing you could choose to do, because He has and never will fail you. I am daily choosing to trust Him.